Reflections On Sanity…….

 

fkid_mirror_thumb[4]I wonder about my sanity,
asking myself if I’m insane
as I look around at cruelty,
at people who relish causing pain
I wonder what the rule is,
how you judge a persons mind
As I look about it comes up short,
when I see reports of this
kind.

fkid_mirror_thumb[4]I’m wondering at my sanity
when I try to catch my breath
as emotions overwhelm me
in reply to seeing painful death
a sense of incomprehension
a basic need to rise above
a place where we allow people
to cause such anguish … Sans love

fkid_mirror_thumb[4]I wonder about sanity,
IS there anyone sane at all?
maybe there’s something missing
left out as life came to call
when our spirits crossed the barrier
accessing new life here on earth
did we bring the violence with us?
it being so, what are morals worth?

                                                                  LadyP © 2011
This poem is in response to a recent blog, by The Hook….

42 responses to “Reflections On Sanity…….

  1. Very wise words, Pen.

    Having seen so much violence from my father and carrying the mental and physical scars of his abuse I know too well how violent the world is.

    I’m lucky though hun.

    He may have left me unable to have children of my own, but I am alive and a constant reminder to him of his past crimes.

    Thanks for the visit and comment though!🙂

    The reason they all turned on me was because of chequebook journalism at its very worst.

    Unable to tie me into any crime involving the children in my care they tried to tie me to four child murders in Denmark because I once visited the country and, when that fell through, they tried to tie me to a Scottish pornographer because I once told a joke in a Scots accent and owned a broken video camera.

    When that failed they got into my childhood, found paydirt and drove me to suicide, got to me in psychiatric care and victimised me when I returned home in an effort to drive me out.

    Finally they poisoned my water supply using a fungus that turned my skin yellow, a trick used by the Triad to mark people for execution, got to me in hospital A&E and finally allowed me to go home after a doctor examined me for the injuries I suffered when I was raped aged 11, my step-father acting as my next of kin so I couldn’t refuse to give my informed consent even though it was my MOTHER who was my next of kin.

    I was then allowed home, got back and my so-called friends then showed up carrying the apologies of all concerned, Bob sending a message via my gutless friend Darren that ‘It was nothing personal he just needed the money’.

    Bob is a bullying thug who gets his kicks out of persecuting people – he still does it today…

    Now I am recovering, medicated and slowly putting my life back together, but the game goes on even after 12 years despite my having been completely exhonorated because they don’t have somebody they can blame…

    Love and squishy hugs!

    Prenin.

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    • I can feel your pain, Sir Prenin, and how much your life had been taken over by the cruelest of actions… and I can also tell how much you have fought to regain a control over your own life and succeeded… Many thanks for your descriptive comment, and glad you agreed with the message contained within the poem….x
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      • Thanks hun!🙂

        The worst part is that it hasn’t ended, just gone on and on as neighbours and ‘friends’ try to make money out of it.

        The local gangsters can’t touch me and my continued life is a constant reminder that their ‘reputation’ is now somewhat blotted…

        Love and squishy hugs!

        Prenin.

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  2. I heard about the sleddog slaughter while driving home from work the other morning … My survival mode is called “Shock and Block” … Poor coping skill, I realize that, but that’s all I can do in order to keep functioning in this crazy world. Love, cat.

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    • I can relate to your tactic’s cat, I try to block out the suffering that’s been caused, but it seems everywhere you turn there’s more to be found…I despair of the words…’humane’ and ‘humanity’ …I really do. Many thanks for your comment my friend. xx
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  3. Hi Pen!🙂

    No I haven’t watched it – I just assumed it was just another ‘Mills and Boon’ story! LoL!!!

    Pity it’s ending though: Mummykins likes it a lot!🙂

    The reason why they pick on me to try and get in is because they fooled me during Halloween and I had to ride herd on them – apparently the kids see me as the local ‘nutter’ now and always buzz me first!

    Fool me once, shame on you.

    Fool me twice, then shame on me…😦

    Love and squishy hugs!

    Prenin.

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  4. I’m going to preserve my sanity (and the delicate balance of my emotions) by not looking at the report that spurred you to write Pen, just seeing the headline is enough. I go through so many emotions, all at the angry end of the scale when I do read reports like this, what on earth goes through the perpetrators minds whilst they do such things?

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    • That’s fine by me Trevor, I’ve been shocked enough for both of us… I despair I really do…and all I can say about what goes through these peoples minds is…nothing? or enjoyment? or maybe they’re just dead inside? take any one option and it’s enough to cause this horrific situation. My thanks to you for your comment my friend. xx
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  5. Well chosen words pen. I wonder often about my sanity.
    xoxox

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    • Many thanks for your comment Beth, I won’t say glad you enjoyed the poem, as I just wish I hadn’t been given reason to write it…The pain , the thought, the reasoning behind cruelty just escapes me…x
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  6. A finely written piece my great friend,
    sanity is indeed in question but of the answers,
    only time will tell on that one… Do have a most
    relaxing rest of evening Lady Pen…

    Androgoth XXx

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    • Many thanks Andro, Time will tell, and I do hope cruelty is repaid in a future life, or there’s some recompense for the maimed and injured, seems there’s little compassion in these people…should compassion be witheld form them? or should we try to understand them? I find it difficult in these circumstances to do that, so is there something lacking in me?
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  7. At first i couldn’t quite understand this one Pen, then when Prenin wrote his /her comments [are they for real] I was even more perplexed, and thought I was just over-tired, so I went back to read your blog and then I saw the ref,clicked on it, saw and read the first inch and had too close it down. I will be having uncomfortable thoughts now. I’d put every last one of the perpetrators of cruelty on a plane to Thailand with a pocket-full of drugs.

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    • Hi Arlene!🙂

      Unfortunately what I wrote to Pen is God’s honest truth and doesn’t cover a hundredth of what I’ve been through in my life – I haven’t known peace for 46 years – but things are getting better and I’m not giving up.

      Every time I have opened up to ‘friends’ around me they’ve gone running off to offer their services to the people my father tried to sell me to when I was little.

      Fortunately my age was such that even they wouldn’t take up my father’s offer…

      Unfortunately this means I have to be wary of everyone around me who are intent on earning a reward for their services to the press and media.

      If you go to my blog you’ll find some poetry I wrote on the subject, but having read ‘The Hook’ and what happened to those dogs and your reaction, I would advise you not to…

      Love and hugs!

      Prenin: 50yo Male…

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      • I know how you feel , Arlene, and Sir Prenin has answered part of your comment, I just felt bound to answer by poem, the horrible act carried out, and to try and put down in verse how it affected me deeply… xx
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  8. Thank you for your poem which points out the cruelty man is capable of committing. Hopefully there is some justice (never enough) for those who committed the atrocities and those who stood idly by with knowledge. I also hope there is some comfort and healing for all victims. Thanks again for your poem.

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    • MY thanks to you for your comment, Dan, and I think Justice was served, maybe not enough for anyone’s peace of mind, but I still cannot understand why?… How anyone could do this or condone it being done… Beggars belief…
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  9. I have reached the point where I cannot bear to watch or read the news….so many stories of inhumanity and cruelty. To Prenin: God bless you!

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  10. Very well written. Deep expressions out there.
    Bravo.🙂

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  11. How awful! Those poor dogs. I suppose it is an insane world after all. 😦

    Well written, Pen.

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  12. Hi there!

    What IS “sanity” really? Surely it’s subjective.
    It seems to be almost entirely a matter of how successfully one relates to one’s environment. What is sane for a soldier serving in war (for example) might be far OTHERWISE in a different environment.
    Which is really the problem for returning veterans, isn’t it? We take people out of their ordinary lives, program them to kill, instill in them a certain degree of paranoia (without which they would be unlikely to survive) and send them off.
    Then two years later we bring them home and expect everything to be hunky-dory and when it isn’t we say THEY are insane.
    Surely the insanity is on those of us who DO this to them?
    ****************************************************
    OK, now that’s a downer.
    For a lighter “fish out of water” tale try this:
    A new weatherman came to Minneapolis a few years ago from another state. The month was June so the forecast was for near 80 degrees Fahrenheit.
    So the weatherman tells us it would be a lovely day for a stroll around Lake Minnetonka.
    (Pack your lunch, Lake Minnetonka’s shoreline stretched for 125 MILES)🙂

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    • a valid point , Cassie, and one which should be taken into account when wondering about sanity and it’s many shades of colour… and lets go for a stroll, should be very healthy and beneficial, not too many sandwiches mind…spoil the effect!! x
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  13. I always love what you write, Pen. As for sanity? I think it’s all in the eye of the beholder. Majority rules, so to speak. I like a little off-sanity from time to time as it jolts the creative processes and that’s a good thing.
    I’m in the middle of paperwork for taxes so haven’t been around to everyone in many days. I came over here this morning because I remembered you were looking for the film on the fish kill. Here’s the link for you:

    Then, if you want to sign the petition against, the link for that is:
    http://www.fishfight.net
    Ok, there you go. I need my morning coffee and will catch up soon😀
    XOXOXO

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    • Thanks Jenny, I’ve just signed the petition, and put a link on my blog,
      and as for sanity, yes I agree, it’s all personal views, personal ideas really, and what’s important to the individual…and being insane , for some of the time as you say, does help to make the world go round… topsy-turvy ideas make for interesting reading…😉
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  14. Hi sweety!🙂

    Just popping by with a BIG hug!!!🙂

    Love ya!

    Prenin.

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  15. Profound, very profound, and deep, raising questions I think we all ask when we see such things happening around us. There seems to be no end to violence, and people keep looking for new ways to kill the innocent. Hell, I ask myself all the time whether I am messed up in thinking the things I see happening around me is wrong. Well, I don’t know, I think I prefer being insane by not accepting war and violence than becoming sane by accepting it.

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    • thank you for your comment, dp, and I concur, in that I’d rather be thought insane and have this revulsion when witnessing this sort of crime against animals, nature and any form of life…So much violence seems second nature to some, and I know Man is a violent animal at his basic core, but shouldn’t the vastness of years since the birth of our species have changed all that? Brought an end to the vein of cruelty within? I fear not..x
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  16. I don’t like a present world that it seems more bad things then a good things.
    We having a resently a sex monster on the streets, 86 years woman was attacked at street and she was hurt very bad wented the hospital to treatments.
    The jails are full of sick people’s and they come out quickly these days.
    I missed good an old days.

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    • There are times when I feel the same, Michiko San, I want to hide myself from seeing all that goes on out there in the World, actions by so called human beings, but if we hide, they win, their actions need to be uncovered and they need to be shown the wrong they’ve done… I just wonder sometimes, and this is the result…my poem, asking about my sanity.
      thank you for your comment and your view, my friend…xx
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  17. I am quite sane though I enjoy bouts of insanity on occasion…. but at the minute, I think I’m driving everyone else insane! What a great post, loved it!

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  18. Insanity in oneself , insanity in the world , has the whole of creation and mankind gone insane?
    Ian

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  19. Some day the penalties for animal cruelty will be the same as for crimes against humans. Maybe not soon, but someday. Thanks for not turning away, Pen.

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    • I couldn’t Monica, I just couldn’t, and ready tears are always there when something like this happens and is reported, tears not just for the animals being slaughtered or maimed, but for us, we die a little as humans every-time it occurs… many thanks for your comment my friend. xx..
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